WEST PALM BEACH, Fla. -- - Walking in slowly and without saying a word, Kimberly Lucas, 40, listened to a Palm Beach County judge deny her bond for the murder charges she faces in connection with the death of her former partner's two-year-old girl.
Lucas is accused of killing Elliana Lucas-Jamason and attempting to kill the 10-year-old brother of the girl before investigators said she tried killing herself.
A newly released arrest report reveals the alleged suicide note police found in a word document in an open computer at the scene.
In the note, Lucas references a sermon she had listened to the day before the alleged killing delivered by Metropolitan Community Church Pastor Lea Brown. The sermon touched on Genesis 22 where God asks Abraham to kill his son Isaac.
"Lea's sermon really, really touched me yesterday, but God never told me to stop!" reveals the document.
"The sermons that are preached in this church are always about God's love. About forgiveness. About acceptance," said Brian Ladd, an active member of the church and family friend.
Ladd said he cannot believe Lucas would reference the sermon in an alleged suicide note.
"It just is really the writing of someone who is really disturbed, very broken," said Ladd.
The note found by police also reveals Lucas blamed her former partner, the mother of the slain little girl.
"In YOUR WORDS 'WHEN YOU ARE LAYING IN BED AT NIGHT REMEMBER YOU (expletive) DID THIS TOO YOURSELF!'" reveals the document.
"She's beyond devastated. As you can imagine, there's no words to describe this kind of loss, this kind of hurt," said Ladd.
Lucas remains at a Palm Beach County jail awaiting a future court date.
A memorial fund has been set up in the name of Elliana. Click here for information.